Damn it’s been a minute since I’ve actually written something on here but yeah. I can’t believe college is right around the corner. I know it may not seem like much change for others and God knows how excited I am for the future, but I’m absolutely terrified. One reason is cos of the work, oh Lordy. I really need to let go of my bad habits, laziness, and thinking that I can coast through it. You literally have all the time in the world to do whatever you please but one thing you can’t do is fuck up. Not only that, your stress level will increase and I’ll probably be lacking sleep and shit. Plus, I gotta balance my time with everything: school, work, study, fun time lol, family, friends, etc. It’s like testing yourself if your strong enough to handle all these things piled up on you and truly knowing what your top priorities are in life. I mean, don’t get me wrong, I know what I gotta do but you can’t slip. Just thinking about the time, effort, and not to mention money, that’s being wasted gives me a sick feeling in my stomach -___-. 

But what I’m really scared of is drifting away from the people that matter most to me right now. There’s PLENTY of people that have come and gone, which is pretty sad lol but what can you do. &there are those handful of people that stayed and some I’ve met recently that really made an impact on me. All my best friends are all going to separate colleges &we’re not going to be able to see each other as often. Ugh it makes me wanna cry but I understand it’s part of growing up. I miss high school. I miss my old friends. I miss a lot of people. I’m gonna meet new faces, experience a crap load of things, cry a lot, laugh a lot, etc. All I have to remember is to keep my priorities straight, work hard, have fun, make time for people, stay positive &keep moving forward.