I’ve been silent this whole time. See, I don’t really know what goes on after tough situations like this. I don’t really know what to say. I don’t deal well with emotional pain. I’ve never gone through anything like this. This is not the first time this has happened to us before so it’s not like Idk how it feels, but you know what I mean. Time and time again, I’ve always came back waiting and thinking ‘dang, I thought I really lost you’. Now that I see that there’s nothing to really hold onto anymore, it gives me a reason to actually let go. This is gonna be really hard because you were there for me on the daily, all day everyday. You were that “my best friend and more” type, and that’s why it’s even harder to move on. I never knew it was gonna end up like this but it is what it is.

Before anything else, there is so much more I would wanna say, but I feel as if I should just leave is as it is. I can’t do anything to change your mind, and I wouldn’t want to, because you make your own decisions. To be honest, I just really want you to be genuinely happy. I’m sorry if I give you blunt and straightforward answers whenever you hit me up, I just can’t act fake towards you and say that everything is all cool and we’re friends. I swear on everything I love, I’m trying my best to reach that level though. I still care so so much about you because you were such a good friend to me before everything else happened. I would love to still be here for you, but I just can’t, as of now. I tried my best to keep you, I did all I can to make you stay, I tried to make you see that I was really here for you. And if you don’t realize that yourself, then maybe it’s best to leave it as it is. Since you said, I just wanna move on with my life, I will do the same. Despite all the pain, hurt, and alla that, I just wanna say thank you so much for the memories, for making me feel special, giving me butterflies whenever I saw you, and all the love you showed me. I respect you so much and I would hope you do the same. I don’t regret anything because I was happy being with you. I’m just taking it a day at a time.